You
start by sitting quietly and working out how you feel. Is it anger? Or is there this low level sense of fear,
anticipation or nervousness which is inexplicable and has no obvious cause
right now?
Could you be feeling guilty? Did you have problems with your siblings in
childhood? When you`re ready, settle down and close your eyes. Visualise
yourself envelopped in a beautiful silken protective cloak.
Find yourself in a vast hall with a
very wide staircase right ahead of you. Count yourself down those stairs and
down into contact with your subconscious mind. One, two, three, four, you are
going deeper and deeper and becoming more and more relaxed, five, six, seven,
eight, nine and ten.
Step over at ten, over a threshhold.
Feel yourself walking along a
passageway. All along the wall are these clocks, grandfather clocks,
grandmother clocks, cuckoo clocks but the strange thing about these clocks is
that the hands each time are turning backwards.
Keep the issue that has brought you
down here to the forefront of your mind. Know you are going back into your
past, and as you move past the clocks see if you can see any particular number
jumping out at you as being the place where the hands have stopped. This is
your blocking point.
This could be where the root cause lies. This is your clue.
If you can`t see any particular number
jumping out at you, try to think of an age where you were not happy. This is
the age you are now revisiting.
Feel yourself becoming smaller and
smaller. Now enter a small doorway in the centre of the clock`s hands ~ the one
where you connected with a certain age.
Go down some smaller stairs, count
yourself down: one, two, three, four and five.
Another doorway opens in front of you and somebody is coming through.
You are at the age where something important happened, something which has been
blocking you ever since. Now you can see
the other person involved. Whoever it is, brother, sister, parent, friend,
welcome them in, try to sense whether you, at that age, have suddenly gone all
tense?
How do you feel? Are you feeling anger, fear, guilt?
Ask your younger self what happened here? If
your younger self can`t answer ask the other person involved.
Try to feel the energy between the
two of you. Can you gain any kind of feeling about what was happening to you at
that particular age? Did you do something wrong or were you accused of doing
something wrong? Were you controlled in
strict beliefs at some stage you didn`t agree with?
Work your way around the whole situation and try, if you can, just to gain the
gist of it all but it doesn`t matter if you can`t feel sense or see any of
it. Just to know the age and hopefully
the other person is all you need.Your cloak is safe.
Now forgive them with every ounce of
your being. Surround that other person
with a violet flame of forgiveness and release them out and away from your
younger self. Send them into the light
of loving forgiveness from your whole heart.
Break off any connection, any chain
that has lingered in your mind between your younger self and the other person`s
strong ideas and opinions inflicted on you. Snap it in two. Feel instead love
rebounding through your end of the chain, returning directly to the younger
you.
Bathe them in a sea of loving divine
energy, fill her to the brim and watch as it shines outwardly from her being.
Forgive the younger you for feeling
that way and forgive yourself in the present day in the same way. Feel that sea of loving energy bathing both
of you, the child and the present you. Blow her a kiss, turn around as the
other person has gone and you come back through the little door in the clock.
Find yourself back in the clock corridor and notice how all the hands are now
going the right way and returning you to the present day. Walk along that
corridor feeling so much better about yourself and find the wide staircase. Now
count yourself up ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three, two and one.
You are back, you are returned to your adult self but on the way through you
have released the block and the chain, you have cleared the way to be free from
that inner sense of anger, resentment, guilt, jealousy or fear which might have
been with you ever since your childhood!